Consumed

You know when life just consumes you? You have all good intentions to do this and to do that??? Yep that me!!!!

I feel like I could write for days because my head is consumed with an over whelming amount of crap... but then I go to put fingers to keypad and it's all just a blur and nothing makes sense in my head!! And if it doesn't make sense in my head,  it's not going to make sense here, and then I will just ramble about nothing in-particular like what I am doing now.! LOL...

I got asked a question the other day "what do you want in life?" Yeah seems pretty easy to answer hey.????

who doesn't want the big house , fast cars and endless supply of cash!!! Ohhhh and a toy boy!!!!  In all seriousness this question has made me really stop and think!! I have never really opened my mind and thought to myself besides the above what I really want out of life!!! Is it to find happiness, to be content with myself, to appreciate what I have in life, look at life more simply, not to worry about things so much!!' All these thoughts have crossed my mind plus more.. the older I become, this question really makes you dig deep to find the answers of what you really want in life... my list is very minimal at present because I really want to reflect and listen to my heart and head.
Ask me when I was teenager and I would of been like, money,  cars, partying and traveling the world,   Plus more partying and having fun!!!!! Priorities have changed 2. Children's  later and I now have to think for 3 not just one!!! It's a challenge and one I am willing to do to help get myself back on track.

Process

I have blogged and I have stopped and I have started and stopped and now I am starting again!!
I have one of those personalities where if i can't give it my all then i don't continue doing it. But after some careful consideration I realised that writing was one way I could release my thoughts without having to talk!

I am not sure that I have a theme for this blog, I am just going to take it one post at a time.

I struggle day to day with life like I am sure a lot of us do, and one thing that I have noticed is that we are never alone even though 99% of the time we feel alone.

I am a single mother, a daughter, sister, a friend, and currently have started working full time for the first time in 5 years. I had a small business which I have just sold, and have lots of change going on in my life.    

I am trying to process my life and recreate myself and find who I am again, in this world!! A lot of changes have occurred in a space of 12 months which i will share over time.

In the meantime introduce yourself to me as i would love to hear about your journeys and life experience and create some blogger friends.

Ness x